My name is Geesejuggler, this was my first time doing it and I'm at word 51,051 of my novel!! I still have one scene to finish, the book is terrible but I'm a winner, dang it!!! *Confetti cannon*

I know that some of you don't like NaNo because it leads people to think that the first draft is the only draft and it fosters a haughty attitude towards the winners but here's why I did it.

1. I had an idea and I needed to get it out there. I'm a really good starter and a really good finisher but sometimes, getting the two to work together is hard for me. I've had ideas for books rolling around in my head for years and looked for books that had the same concept of my idea. I'd find it, read it and think to myself "Close but no cigar" and with certain books, "Even I could have done something better than that". NaNo was about me sitting down and putting my money where my mouth was. I had the idea, I had the words and time. I just had to do it.

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2. To see if I could do it. I know that anyone can sit down and write a book theoretically but I needed to see if I could do it. Writing has been one of those things that I've wanted to do for years and I've heard writers constantly talk about how sometimes the hardest thing to do is to get your butt in a chair and write. If writing was something I really wanted to try for, I needed to see if I could fit my procrastination and flighty mindset and write hundreds or thousands of words everyday. NaNo just happened to be the best forum for me to try it.

3. To see if I still wanted it if and when I did finish. This month has been hard. Writing is hard, guys! Like, moments of me spinning in a chair, staring my family while whispering "I should be writing" hard. It's like the internet has stuff out there made with the sole purpose and sucking away your time and aiding you in procrastinating! Who knew? Then when I could focus, I was still painfully aware of how terrible this book was. Seriously, this draft is so rough, it only drives pickup trucks and drinks vodka for breakfast. The last 5 days was me pushing myself to finish it early so I could go back to my life and the things I wanted and needed to do. I had to stop pushing myself because my wisdom teeth are cutting in and has been giving me a splitting headache for the past week. Yay. After I goofed off for a day, it was easier to write and more funny again. Despite all of this, there were still times where I was excited for the scenes I was assigned to write that day or finished a scene I was just inspired to write and think "That wasn't complete crap!"

I don't have a laptop so my NaNo story is 100% handwritten. While I was writing, I would have no idea what I would write or what would happen until about 1 minute before I put it down on paper. I'd look at the blank page and I wouldn't know what I would fill it with, only that it would be filled. The act of writing, of the pen flying across the page sparked something in my imagination and I wrote, laughing at the jokes touched by the bravery that didn't exist 5 minutes beforehand. It was terrifying and beautiful. I never thought things like that happened in real life, much less could happen to me and now I know it has, it can and when I write again, it will. Don't get me wrong, this book is still terrible but I look forward to the journey it will take me on for the years to come.

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This year, I had wanted to see if writing was a valid career goal for me to have. I decided to do NaNoWriMo and to write some short stories and send them to some companies and planned on failing both of these goals with fantastic explosions. In August, I sent in a short story and it got picked up by Critical Mass Rocketworks, the same people of We Had Stars Once fame. They're currently working on getting the kickstarter together so we can get it published. The goals I thought I would fail to achieve both worked not only succeeded but with results I never hoped to get. I did it.

I did this to see if writing was a feasible goal for me. Absol-freaking-lutely.

Hit me with some celebratory gifs, io9ers! It's time to celebrate!! EXCLAMATION POINTS AND ALL CAPS!!!